i guess i did something

I was sitting here thinking that i didn't do anything this week.

then i remembered that i went to manhattan on wednesday. i went to the manhattan temple for the first time. it was lovely. i mean really lovely. i love mini-temples. i love normal sized temples too. but there's just something more intimate about the mini's. it was a shock walking out into the city. its like you forget.

after the temple i went to see jared's art at a gallery in chelsea. it was great to see. so smart.

then i went to the virgin record store at union square and bought a few cds. those $10 sales get me every time. the new ryan adams, an old rufus wainwright which i loved and lost (if i lent it to you i guess you can keep it now), and the new mandy moore.

then i made it home and watched so you think you can dance. my fav's at this point - lacey and kameron, dominic and sabra. my favorite of the night though was definitely jamie and hok. wow. wade robson is one great choreographer.

finally

I did the math yesterday. I have loved wilco since 1999/2000. My first year in Philly I had no TV and 5 or so DVDs. One was the wilco doc. that I watched over and over. I have been itching to see them for 7 years and finally my dreams came true somewhere in Maryland. It was completely satisfying and I left feeling a little giddy. Plus, I played MASH when we were waiting for the music and I have the best future ever. Married to Brandon Flowers, living in NY as a fashion designer, riding the subway, 5 kids and a pet mini-mini poodle (which sounds ugly, but my cousin has one and it is the cutest dog ever - and no shedding!) It was a good night.

shopoholic

Two sundays ago i gave the relief society lesson about "living providently" - keeping a garden, food storage, reducing debt, etc....

I am a hypocrite

Yesterday I bought three pairs of shoes........ I've been itching to buy shoes for a while now. I think that last pair of shoes I bought was back in November for my brother's wedding so it's been awhile, especially for a shoe-lover like me. My fav - red flats with a little leopard print trim. only $10. Cute - yes, unnecessary - yes. I also bought a pair of jeans that were on-sale for $10. The last thing I need is more jeans, but..... they are totally Lenny Kravitz-worthy.

I realize that I am almost 26, but I still buy clothes that are marketed to 16 year olds. Is that wrong?

President Kimball would be ashamed of me. That's the problem with being unemployed. There's nothing to do but walk around and spend money that I don't have. Still, the job hunt continues. I just applied for a job working with geriatrics..... I've been focusing on child/adolescent jobs thus far, but figured I might as well. Old people give me the heebie-jeebies a bit, but maybe I should broaden my experiences so I'll have more options later......

good thesis news

I met with my thesis advisor yesterday. The first thing she said to me "I was so impressed!" YES! She said it was so so nice and that my writing was really good. yeah! There are just a few little points to change and a few typos.... my favorite "the participant'sexperience.... ha. freud would've gotten a kick out of that.

In other news... I went to DC over the weekend and played with my friend jessie. We went to a singles barbeque where I ran into the james dewey.... who started the poetry club that I went to my last year at byu. that was kind of exciting. The best part was that he didn't remember my name, but remembered one of my poems. I think that is an enormous compliment. He provided me with a little motivation to open up my notebooks and write a little more poetry.

In other news.... I think I want to buy the new Mandy Moore album. I don't know what my fascination is with her, but i just think she's mature and classy, especially compared to a lot of the young celebrities these days. And I've heard some of her new stuff and it actually sounds pretty good. And co-writing with rachel yamagata. classy.

the best afternoon ever

Saw Ryan Adams for free today. It was ..... lovely. yum. My thanks to Alex who is a member of XPN and who checks his email lots and was able to get the tickets. And thanks to Ryan for being sober and for writing lovely songs and for the voice.

The best evening ever!

Went and watched the new flick "once". there are no words..... beautiful. My heart feels bigger because of that movie. beautiful.

Came home and watched "so you think you can dance". Lacey and Kameron. there are no words. beautiful. my heart grew even more.

the best evening ever.

Nauseating

I am unemployed and bored. I won't be able to defend my thesis until early July.... So that leaves me with about a month of time. I've been job-hunting. I hate it. I hate sending out resumes because I hate feeling like people are judging me. Plus, it's terrifying to think about starting a new phase of my life. After a few hours of looking for jobs online I start to feel sick. In fact, this morning when I was getting ready to leave my apartment to work on resumes, etc I started to feel nauseous..... Pavlov was right.

Here are 3 of the 22 bed bug bites that I got sleeping at my dad's hotel. Holiday Inn sucks.

And here is the 3 copies of the first draft of my thesis. are you impressed?

I don't know!

These days, the questions seem to be coming more often.... Or maybe I'm just more sensitive. Either way, the answer is the same..... I don't know. I don't know what I'm doing in a few months. I don't know where I will be living. I don't know what I will be doing. I don't know.

I missed church last week and I heard from two friends that there was a perfect new boy for me. He wasn't there. Dashed hopes.